15thfeb2008
NPCC NPCC NPCC
when for npcc in the afternoon,
actually,i am having a clear mind&happy mood to go for NPCC but half way through the training,
the fat ass shouted "HEY HONGYING!YOU ARE A xxx ?!HEARD FROM SxxxxN YOU LIKE gxxx?!"
knn la !whats the problem with you about lxx ?!
its legal in singapore okay?!
what if i go out telling people you are a gxx?! how will you feel?
&so i went to ask SxxxxN what he told the fat ass,SxxxxN went to ask him.
the best part is the fat ass gave us a freaking innocent face&said"no,i didnt say anything,i dont know anything."
fcuk off la ! since is you said out then just admit la,why must say until like that?
do you know that it is an insult to me?
DO YOU EVER KNOW HOW I FEEL?
I FEEL HURT,I FEEL INSULTED,MY HEART IS BROKEN !!! ='(
after training,went to have a talk with SXXXXN,after that,all the CIs&MsLee knew about it,
MsLee brought SXXXXN to one corner and talk while BxxxxN brought me to the canteen to talk.after here&there,SxxxxN apologise to me.
BxxxxN gave him a lecture,
at that moment,i didnt cry.i wanted to be strong-althought its hard la.
i went into the toilet&saw mone&jl,.
i hugged mone and started crying.
it hurts la.
let me tell you boy,
you can say you dont mean it,you can say sorry to me.
but when the knife snab into my heart,the scar will never going to heal,its painful.
this scar will be with me my secondary life until i didnt see you or even my whole life.
i am only 15years old&i had already a scar in my heart.
outerside of me i can be happy,i can be cheerful but deep in my heart,who knows how i feel?
you people out there can say its just a small thing only,why must get so sad over it ?
you guys can say,since you are one then why must you be so sad?
BUT can you imagine not?he will trying to tell the whole world about it!maybe you all cant understand how i feel&i also dont know how to describe how i am feeling BUT what i can say is,IT HURTS !!!!!
shall stop this...
after i had changed&stuff,went makan with deidre, jeremy,hong xiang,mone&seri.
tried to forget what happened and be extreme crazy.hiding the pain.
after dinner,went jalan jalan thn jeremy send me home&hongxiang send mone home.
special thanks to benson that is there for me,mone for your hug=D and jeremy that send me home.
NPCC is a family that i feel that i am loved.
i will hardly feel neglected there.ILOVEYOU GUYS =D
another day with another story