to you:
now i can contact you no way.
i guess here is the only place i can tell you how i am feeling now.
i fcuking miss you can? tears keep dropping down.
looking at your pic really make me think of you.
where are you?!
what are you doing?!
i wish to know.you told me you will msg me but i have been waiting&waiting&i GOT NOTHING !!
i feel like hugging you tight &let you go no more.
i wish this 2weeks will just fly by...
baby,contact me asap !
i miss you so...

I AM JEALOUS !!!!
yes ! i am jealous over alot of things&jealousy kills .
why must you contact XY ?
do you know how much i HATE her ?!
i thought you told me once before " you will not want this friend because of me ?"
but now ? SIGH !!!!!
seriusly , you disappoint me . i feel disappointed .
you took pics with her , so close somemore la ! WTFH !
OMT ... *fainting*
I HATE XY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YOU'RE GONE...
my dearest mr NG is gone.
back to his own country.
it will be 2weeks...long way la !
i can't bear you from leaving,it's tearing me apart.
from 3plus you left&i have been crying and thinking where are you now.
are you missing me?cause i am doing so...seriously, i hope that your answer will be a yes..
i am worried.JL told me to have confident in myself,the ans from you definitly will be a YES.
but seriously i am unsure.i dont know what to do...sigh.
J E R V I N N G !!
you are simply making me going nuts ! i am going WHAO !
this morning , thanks for accompanying me for the breakfast . i appreciate it very much .
how i wish that moment will stay .
how i wish that time will never pass at all .
i can't let you go ,
i can't say goodbye .
my love... don't let this end this way okay ?
don't let this go easily okay ?

i'm swearing to the god that "MY HEART ONLY CONSIST JERVIN NG&NO ONE ELSE !!"
if i am lying,i will get bang down by a car tomorrow while walking home after school.
arghhhhh !!!!!!!!! FASTER COME BACK !!!
i miss you so....

LOOKING AT YOU LEAVING EVERY SINGLE DAY..
FURTHER&FURTHER AWAY...
i seriously want you to be my one last love,but i guess you can't,isn't it?
you told me you won't let this continue.
although i wish to change,but i don't think i can.
i am trying my very best to make you change your mind you know?
i hate people saying that i am your ex,CAUSE I AM NOT &NOT ONE !
being your girlfriend is really a very nice thing,i feel hounered.
i hope you will always stay by my side&watch me.
be a gurdian star.
hold my hand &walk me through...
i don't think i am going to let this go easily..
GIRL, trust me, its not easy.
i know i keep telling myself to be strong&not cry,but seriously its not easy.
you had to let the person you love most to go.
you say i had to get use to it,but why can't you understand me?
do you know this period of time is the time i love you most&i need you most?
stop telling me that fucking reason can?
reflect on what i told you that day in KFC.
look into my eyes,it do tell you alot of things.
see!my tears are falling.
i didnt let it fall.i am trying to be happy,but i scare it will leak out soon.
people always tell me this,
"be strong girl,i know you are one.smile more,it do attract people,its sweet&lovely. although you are at already at the verge of falling,but still,you will be able to make it.am i right?"
last time maybe yes,to other things,maybe yes.
but SORRY ,
to this relationship i can promise anything.
i don't know how much more will i be able to smile.
i know if you can turn back the time,you won't choose me anymore.
but what i know is,our time are memorable .
its really a fond of memories.
so please,
dont go.when you really had to go,i will let you go eventually.
you are always loved by me.
my sweetest boyfriend.
must remember me...
i love you so..

CAME TO AN END...
everything had came to an end,
speech day parade is over,
ballet exam is over too.
damn sux la !
i think i am going to fail my ballet exam this time round.
i did quite a number of exercises wrongly.
SIGH !!!
the parade sectment is fun.we has a lot of fun in the basement,aren't we people?
hmmm..
after all i am happy with today? i am glad that finally i can really have a goodnight rest tonight.
hoping that you won't leave me all alone...

MAYBE ITS CAUSED BY YOU?
maybe its caused by you?i still cant accept you being close with her.
my heart feeling down when i saw all the pics&stuffs?
is it because of her?
is it doing for her?
my heart is tearing apart.i don't know what to do?
i am thinking,its all nonsense !
i am thinking of stuffs that it shouldnt be in my mind...
you dont want me anymore...you left me all alone now...
do you know how much i need you?
you are just my life....dont leave me alone,my boy...
i miss you so...

I MISS YOU BADLY..
after you have left,
i felt the emptiness,
now then i know how much you meant for me.
my heart is tearing,tearing into pieces.
i am feeling the pain now& i hate it you know?!
i cant promise you anything now,i dont even know what i will do next.
i had already disappoint you thoroughly,i guess.
i need to tell you that you are the one&only.
no matter how many times i said,you won't believe me,isn't it?
my heart is only meant for you&no one else.
i had never cry so badly for someone else before.
i wanted to jump down,i didn't eat for meals& i didn't sleep at all.
my body is tired,my body cant take this anymore.
its going to collaspe soon.
how i wish all these wont happened.i am feeling really bad now.
can i take a knife and kill myself or can i just jump down?
i dont know how easy is it for you to let it go,
but what i know is i cant bear to let this relationship go.
i want to be dote by you,i want to be cared by you.
you will always be stayed in my heart.
this feeling will never be faded at all-i sweared !
i lost my sweetest valentine,i lost someone i need to be treasured but i didn't.
it had been the fact already& i can't change this fact.
please be happy alright?
i dont want to hear you cry cause i know you are strong&when you cried,
it means that you are in great pain.
i dont wish it will happen in you,
i am willing to take all these pain with meBUT simply not you.
i miss you so,i still love you so;my laogong...
i am not going to let go...
13012007-21032008...

I AM BACK TO MY SINGLE LIFE...
there'll be no more 13012007...
it had all ended.ended by you.
all the excuses you gave are hurting..
maybe its for me,maybe its for yourself,BUT...
after all, i think that you are selfish.
the feeling for you in me is deep;right inside.
tears keep rolling down&i cant help it.
i still love you so,my darling.
when you're gone, the pieces of my heart are mising you...

outer me seems happy but inner me is crying badly,
i am holding on to all my tears&hope it will stay inside,
i want to be strong,
BUT i guess i cant.
you love me no more,
you left me all alone,you dont want me anymore...
13012007-21032008
i miss you;
i still love you so...

in the past ,
you would tell me how much you misses me ,
you will use loads of ways to make me happy , make me smile .
you did all those silly things is just for one reason .
is to see my smile &laughter.

after i found you ,
i saw my real laughter .
i smile through my heart .
nothing is fake .
i love to be cared by you .
i miss all your messages .
boy.... i miss you .

you told me not to let you wait for too long ,
but i am SORRY !
seriously SORRY ! i knew i hurted you.
hurt you deeply .
&now,
it's time for me to get the hurt .
i regretted for not treasuring the moments with you .
i dont know what more to say .

you are the one that made me see my laughter ,
you are the one that made my day always ,
after you left...
i cant see my laughter anymore .
no one is able to make my day anymore .
all the memories had been craved into my heart&memory .
the scar you left is there, it do still bleed at times .
after all ,
i miss you . if i can turn back the time,i will hold you tight& never let you go anymore.
i just need that one more chance , can i ?

IF YOU ARE NOT THE ONE
If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all
I never know what the future brings but I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through and I hope you are the one I share my life with
I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tells me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do i dream of you as my wife?
I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I'm praying you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

you thought me how to sing this song,
you told me what this song means
now i wanna tell you that this song means my heart,
my true love to you.
boy , you are simply the one i love deep in my heart...

回到过去
一盏黄黄旧旧的灯时间在旁闷不吭声寂寞下手毫无分寸
不懂得轻重之分沉默支撑跃过陌生
静静看著凌晨黄昏你的身影失去平衡慢慢下沉
黑暗已在空中盘旋该往哪我看不见
也许爱在梦的另一端无法存活在真实的空间
想回到过去试著抱你在怀里羞怯的脸带有一点稚气
想看你的看的世界,想在你梦的画面
只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜想回到过去试著让故事继续
至少不再让你离我而去分散时间的注意
这次会抱得更紧这样挽留不知还来不来得及想回到过去
思绪不断阻挡著回忆播放盲目的追寻仍然空空荡荡
灰蒙蒙的夜晚睡意又不知躲到哪去
一转身孤单已躺在身旁



LKX,this song made me think of you,
i want to go back to our past...
i miss you ;
perhaps you had given up on me , but i still love you so ....